Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Where to begin now that it's all over

As I'm sure you can imagine, we're back from Disney World. The vacation happened. So did Christmas and I'm still here to talk about it. If I thought I was stressed in my last post, hang on to your hat, it got worse.

Before I even begin, there's irony to be noted. Just the day before I sat in traffic on Carolina Forest Blvd, attempting to make a left onto 501 towards the beach and I said aloud, "I need to blog about the honest idiots on this road!" Let me set the scene...

There are three lanes of traffic on Carolina Forest Blvd. The right lane is for right turns only. It's clearly marked as such. The center lane can either go straight through the light or make a left. The left lane is for left turning only. What folks will do, though, is turn right out of the Kroger parking lot with the full intention of blocking traffic in the right through lane because they're waiting for someone to let them into the stopped traffic which is waiting to make a left when the light turns green. People will sit precariously stuck in the way of oncoming traffic to make that light. That forces others to use their 4WD and off-road to get around them if they want to make a timely right. If they choose not too, they wait the length of the light. It's infuriating. The other little trick these people pull is driving out into that right lane just as the light has changed with the full expectation that you'll let them in. I, if I can safely avoid it, do not. Jerks.

Now here's where I eat crow. Evidently I am one of those crazy drivers, just of a different variety.

Three days before our trip, I was trying to make it through that light to make a left onto 501. As we were approaching, the light turned yellow, but still with plenty of time to get through. The gal in front of me aggressively whipped around the slow-moving car in front of her and sped off. I followed her, but at the last possible moment, she made a split second decision to stop and slammed on her brakes. I did the same but the road was wet, I skidded a bit and bump...metal touched.

At this juncture I can say, with an honest heart, that I'm beyond thankful to God no one was hurt. But if you asked me on that day, I was drowning in "this sucks!" so much that I couldn't see that forest from the trees.

I, of course, got a ticket. I, of course, will now have two points on my license. My, of course, insurance premiums will go up. I, of course, sat there waiting for the police to arrive knowing for certain we would not be traveling to Disney World. Our other car is 11 year old and is driven approximately 6 miles a week since my hubby has a company vehicle.

Never in my life have I had such a visceral reaction to stress. The gal in the other car was very polite and even somewhat nice. Despite the fact that I still contend she contributed, she had every right to be quite mad at me. Instead she commiserated. I, for fear of vomiting on her, barely spoke.

When the police officer arrived, he, too, exceptionally nice. If I could remember his name without digging out the paperwork, I'd give him a personal momorable mention. Unfortunately, at the time, I barely answered his questions for fear I would puke.

I held it together until I got home from the whole thing and called my dad. Suddenly I turned into a 16 year old and burst into uncontrollable tears. What the heck had just happened? It felt surreal. Was it a bad dream? There is no way I had just, theoretically, caused an accident. I'm an excellent driver! I don't speed. I'm cautious. I was devastated.

When hubby came home from work that night, he quickly determined that the damages were worse than he originally thought. It was decided that we would drive our old clunker down to Disney World, which made me nervous. But that was if I could get ourselves together enough to even go. I was in a dark dark place those days.

The good news is that I received tons of support from friends and family. I worked through the process of calling my insurance company and submitting the necessary information. I still cried on and off.

Again, I'm so thankful no one got hurt. But car accidents super suck.

I'll write later about the trip. There are lots of high points in that tale.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

The stress has set in...happy freakin' holidays

In the next three days I have to pack for our trip, do an extraordinary amount of work for the two sites I am employed by, get gifts ready for our faith formation teacher, church angel, preschool teacher and two kindergarten teachers. I have to complete my Christmas cards and wrap my gifts. I remember when I planned our Disney World vacation for this coming week I swore up and down I have work really hard to have things under control. At this very moment, I feel quite out of control. :-( Let's just hope the magic of it all outweighs the anxiety I feel getting ready to go.

As we get closer, I start dropping things off my "to do" list. I don't really need to wrap before we go. I would, however, like to know exactly what I have. I need to shop for my sister-in-law, brother-in-law, mother-in-law and husband, but I'm thinking I can shop online while on vacation and have those packages waiting for me when I get home.

*deep breaths* *calming thoughts* *ohmmmmmmmmm*

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

If you ever have the opportunity to get a standing ovation - go for it!

I was watching a show just a minute ago where this gal was talking about always wanting to be a performer. She laughed about being that kid, singing into the hairbrush in front of the mirror. I was that kid too. Some of us are just born attention seekers, I guess.

Once while at *blush* band camp...yes band camp...I was given the opportunity to receive a standing ovation. About 250 high school kids were sitting in an auditorium and the famous Dr. Tim Lautzenheiser stood in front of us on the stage talking about how great it feels to be supported and appreciated. He sheepishly asked, "has anyone ever received a standing ovation?" Most of us shook our heads. "Anyone want one to see how it feels?" My hand shot up.

As luck had it, I was sitting in one of the front rows and got called right up. Dr. Tim exited the stage leaving me looking out amongst a sea of faces. I blinked, unsure of what to do. Dr. Tim gave the command and the crowd went wild! Their response was deafening!

They jumped to their feet! They cheered! They whistled! They hooted and hollered! They clapped! They yelled "Bravo!" Despite having done nothing at all, I reacted.

I kissed my hands and blew it out to the crowd. I mouthed, "Thank you, thank you!" I waved. I expressed gratitude for the appreciation. I felt so full of life and energy. I felt like I wanted to do something great for these people. I was ready to take on the world!

Imagine dialing that whole experience down a few notches. Maybe I wouldn't be moved to tears, but appreciation and recognition goes a long way. In fact, small amounts often is probably the ideal situation. So note to self - applaud people in your own way. It's a worthwhile investment!

Now a small note of irony...the image used above is from www.guardian.com.uk in a blog post about how the standing ovation has gotten all too frequent and meaningless. LOL Despite my complete lack of effort put out to receive my own, it still meant something...to me, anyway.